stuck in the middle

Some wishes will never come true..because reality is twisted with my fantasy..its true i know..dun deny it..im weird im strange..fr being like this..but maybe being weird is what we really are..not popular mcm korunk*yela anda semua kan hot2 artis roxstar plaktu HAHAAAAA*..not jocks..nor geeks..in our own little world..in our own little minds..we re all weird..and dats what connects us..so when i have a problem..dat wont go away..i sit and wish..wish the most ridiculous wishes..cause it helps me think..it clears my mind..it makes me forget whats in a turmoil inside of me..my own fantasy takes over and im livin dat dis time..wish i cn fnd smeone dat cn really2 understand my fckin prob..my mind is spinning mcm gasing..i wake up with none to say hye..to eat..mcm xwujud,,how sadd dowh..*smbil buat muke bdget sdey cm nk kna pukol*AHAA..ive been through like a really hard time..one after another non stop..but nvm i am not complaining..plus i am getting tired of cmplaining..chill its a life..always ade up and down.thanx Allahh fr giving me strength..maybe He's testing me..who knows kan..i know that he's near..i know dat He have read my heart and my words i know He hear..greatful fr Allah that He is in our lives..without Him i know i would never be able to survive.
wish i could turn back the time..wheres everything seems to be so perfect..but xkesala,DA BIASE.haha ayat biasa org pkai..promise,i'll learn from my mistakes.XoxO
*wake up and deal with ur reality*
pfttt bak kata neb,emo shit la kau ni.HAHA well biasala neb,org MELAYU.ahah
and ouh qib n aim,rindu blk bdo HAHA nt kiTeW MAin FutSal Sma-SmA eh Eh?hikhik.. HAHA!ayat rempit kt myspace sial

imagining flight

hye silly ronggeng,,this is what i want n wish i cn hve it now

i wanna go away..to a place dats still and quiet..no one to be found,but me..i wanna go to a place dat no one judges me..not in dat way..i wanna go to a universe where i cn make my own decisions..never play by the rules..i wanna go to a place dat has everything i need n something safe..i wanna go away from all the anger,hate,drama..i wanna go to a place dats happy n where no one is there to stop it..i wanna go away to a place that has a soul n has a heart..i wanna go away to a place where i just can be me n be myself..i wanna go away to find dat one place..i wanna go away from all this..and i also wanna fly like fly like a bird high above the clouds where no one will find me..i want to be on the rise..i wan to go through the clouds,i wan to out race the birdy crowds,i wan to watch sun rises and sets,i wan to win all the racing bets..i wan fly so high past heaven,past space,somewhere i can dream..no government,no legislature like BLABLA what so ever..no war..juz peace and harmony..some where love is unpredictable..i wanna fly so high that i can no longer feel pain and heart break..with peace of mind..i wait,one day i will,nothing is impossible still,so i wait..*keningkening*ahaa~pffftttt merepek kerepek HAHA andd ouhh i wan to meet christiano ronaldo and sys to him da minum?i wan to meet apple and sys hye babee da mkn ayam?i wan to meet all my childhood and long lost frens and sys weh smbonk skang?..i wan to meet bill gates and sys weh nk dwet skit boleyh?andd i wan to meet raraa cause i missss her soooo so badly and wish her best of luck fr her spm..andddd i wan PLAYSTATION 3 pleaseeeee..ahah~

lasagna

When someone starts talking to me bout politics,the little voice in my head tells me,let's get away from this person..seriously i would rather bounce my head against a brick wall or chew on rocks..i don't know why people insist that i listen..i thought politicians are meant to be ordinary people whom we pay money to,so dat they can devote their time to managing our country’s processes..but they become professional politicians..guess it,a guy is not a professional manager,administrator or even theoretic..he is a professional politician..dat probably means he earns quite a pile of money for just blablablabbing on TV and building up his personal image. .what a selfish sial..#$$## i hate them dear kiwak jimbatree ahaaa..they juz pretnd infront all of us..everything's juz bout their money n powers..walllaawehh i hate politics -_-

i want lasagna!weheeeee~*keningkeningg*ouh,united won 2-0 against ar sengall,sumpah korunk plg havoc kt mcd smlm hahah~

chicken ayam

i hate my work
i hate my lecturers ( especially nalini kot HAHA)
i hate going to class cuz i have to deal with stupid people ( copy ayat sara kachak)
i hate group discussion..sux mcm babi..nama je group tp last2 aku sorunk yg siapkan..ase nk hentak pale sekor2
i hate some of AD's junior..skit2 pggil bro..pale abah kau bro..ble plak aku kawin dgn kakak kau sial?
i hate my guitar * i love u so muchieeeee..tp knapa kau patah?ahah=(
i hate puasa at melaka,yes really i do,pg bazar xnmpk makanan tp nmpk org..how sux is that?sama mcm sara kachak(copy paste weh)
i hate diz sem,cause ase nk skip the class every single day ahaa

*haven't do my photo assgnment yet..pfttttt godd ble RAJIN nk smpai ni?ahah

Al-Fatihah

Al-fatihah to Prof Dr.Datuk Ismail and condolence to my bff Syafiq Hanis and his family.

*be strong and patient okeyh,ktorank always kt blakang kau.

journey

everybody needs friends..people whom we cn communicate with..but who cn we consider friends?friends whom we spend time at the coffee shop..friends whom we work with..frens whom we hang out with..school frens or our childhood frens..there is no prejudice..no different..no competition..until one day when we open up our eyes n realise dat the world is not as it seems.. we hve to accept the risk as frenship is one journey which is full of uncertainties.

mufakasss

The world seems like its going upside down..y can the world be peace?juz gve me a lilll peace..atleast fr a second..it haven't help me with my sleep lately ahaaa mrepek sial.. ouhh..juz fnished 3 assgnments-typography,graphic media and photographic..what a relief..but fr suree,moreee n moreee assgnment projects to comee.pftttt..and presentation fr CTU ws ok..act a bit sux jgak but nvm,ustazah says SHAKAMARA!hahaa

inside my head now:
*rindu tido ats katill sbab ari2 tido dkt lantai sbab air aircond tumpah lalu membasahi katil.HAHA
*ps333 ouhh ps3=(

one o four teen

anda-anda semua sila kesah pasal saya kerna buat masa ini saya rasa diri saya tidak dikesahkan oleh awak-awak sekalian.HAHA

i just need someone who cares.

precious bestfriend.

=)

It all started off in high school.u were my friend's then later u became my BESTfriend..what a small world..high school days came to pass and we lost all contact..seriously after lost cntact,imy gle2 dowh haha..thanx to tom frm diz myspace yg gay aha..we reconnected after a year..,i always wnt to put a big smile on herface,sowi always xjd babe.haha bengong..even she love to ketuk myhead with her garang face(bwerkkk xtkot pn),bpk sakit dowh.aha..she's worth more than gold and she's my bff,so don't u ever dare to hurt her feeling.

BELANJA ME

running red lights

i dont know y i am feeling so lonely and restless nowadays..i wake up,with none to say hye..to eat..i am starting to feel dat i am hopeless and useless..i am out of mood..pffftt..mybe i am juz so so tired and restless..maybe en.yus pnye assgnment like arghhh..i tend to sleep very late..but i wake up early..bpkk imsomnia terok dowh..but i am used to it..and its kinda weirdoo if AD student tido b4 4 a.m,i mean every single day.haha..smetimes im bringing back the old me,fuckk upp..where i usually tend to keep all my problems to maself,even bdo2 ones..i juz wish the wind could blow the problems away..rite now..in a second..arghh i am giving up..butt should i?pftt hell noooo n neverrr..no mtter what..i'll never give up..no matter what the odds are..no matter what people say..no matter how far if i throw it away time after time..if i am one step behind try after try..if i miss dime after dime..i will never gve up dowh..even when it seems all over..even when no one else believes..even when it seems i cn go no further..fr i know i hve strength within..i know i can persevere..i know dat i can win..there's so much i can still do..there's too much talent to waste..there's so much in me that i want you guys to see >.< there's no reason to be afraid..no one can let me down..its ok,everyone has his day and some days last longer than others..enjoy it..enjoy hurt enjoy pain enjoy despair enjoy brokennes and have a nice life..blaaaa

*and ouh,today xpg smyng jmaat cause abg ckp die xtukar suar pnjg lg,pkai short..goshhh reason apakah itu =_=..i neeeedd my mini cooper rite now -__-

waiting

i misss this car..not mine OF COURSE..belongs to my brother tp always buat harta by me..but now this car sakit already.ahah



and ouh i juz found my pic with nates.


*tired n lapar =_=

general

i didn't do any of my assignment(haven't done it yet) n did not even catch up wth anyone though the phone..i ve lost the mood to do anything n it sux..mybe i m juz too tired with a lot lot lot of assignment projects..n juz realized,my eyes da mcm panda >.<..my fwens always sys chill lah fye lepak2 dgn ktorank,kje tu lek2 luu sapp kokk..HAHA bnyklaaaa lek2..sorry guys i juz can't make it,maybe next time.

blavaablavaa

PROMISE

A promise of yes that does turn to no,is a sad and painful review..it runs through ur mind,thoughts bad and unkind,self doubt displaces the truth.,u tend to accept ur inner most faults instead of just looking toward pain..u beat urself down,ur head to the ground the feeling just drives me insane..so if u give ur word,a promise to one,prepare to make it come true for if you turn sour,change ur mind in the hour then u r painting the others world blue..things have never been so swell n i have never felt this real..lets talk bout someone else..steaming soup begins to melt.XoxO